360degrees turn

Dec hols is here! (ok i know this is a bit late.. ahaa) I haven't been doing anything much besides reading books, evolving into a crouch potato, going out having fun...etc. Besically enjoying myself and wasting my time away not doing useful stuff. =P Been wanting to blog for sometime now.. but my sister monopolizes the internet connection at home(since she's paying for it) and since i've yet to get a router, I hardly get to come online.

But yes, what a great time of slacking b4 the hustle-and-bustle of school starts again! The freedom to choose what one wants to do is shiok! Ha ha. Nevertheless, relaxation and rejeuvenation aside, what is so great about holidays is also the time to reflect and re-orient myself b4 school starts and work steals away the time to do everything else.

I must say I've finally come to some satistfactory decision on an issue that I've been unable to settled on for a long time. Now that I've decided on my stand, i feel really liberated. In life, each decision involves a trade-off. In some you go all the way, and in some you compromise. And as nic always tells me, each man to his own conscience. As long as my conscience is clear before God.. that's good enough for me.

Any one seen Josh Groban's album Awakening on tv? Josh Groban's stong vocals resonating the lyrics of his main song 'You Are Loved' immediately captured my attention.. it's quite beautifully composed i must say. Simple words, yet it encompasses a deep, bountiful meaning.

Leaving you with some thoughts to ponder on.. so many of us go through our christian walk comparing ourselves with non-christians. Questions like: How is it like to live a life that is void of the restrictions? How does it feel to live each day just to please ourselves? When others label us as goody-two-shoes or 'oh-so-holy' is worth the price to pay? Does God see what I am going through for Him? what if what if what if...

But what if God sees...the things you are going through.. the words of retort that you bite back in the face of unfair comments.. the yearnings to be like your other friends and just to go with the flow.. or the thoughts that say i will choose not to do this because i choose to honour my God.

What if.. God sees the the silent tears you shed in your heart at times when you think no one understands.. What if.. God sees the heart that shouts out no matter the opposition, it want to live out a life that's worthy of a child of God? What if.. God sees the progress you make to spiritual maturity and is mightily pleased?

What if.. we know with a certainty that God knows and he understands and he loves us with an everlasting love? When that mindset is embedded deep in our consciousness, that when when we realise that everything we do.. every sacrifice we make.. it will all be worth it.

Josh Groban - You Are Loved

Don’t give up
It’s just the weight of the world
When your heart’s heavy, I
I will lift it for you
Don’t give up
Because you want to be heard
If silence keeps you, I
I will break it for you

Everybody wants to be understood
Well I can hear you
Everybody wants to be loved
Don’t give up
Because you are loved

Don’t give up
It’s just the hurt
That you hide
When you’re lost inside, I
I’ll be there to find you

Don’t give up
Because you want to burn bright
If darkness blinds you I
I will shine to guide you

Everybody wants to be understood
Well I can hear you
Everybody wants to be loved
Don’t give up
Because you are loved

You are loved

My fav verse from the bible: Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perserverence the race marked out for us. [Hebrews 12:1]